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Monday, November 1, 2010

My Story - Part 8 ... Nothing shall be impossible ...

I have written my story in several parts because it is so long. You can read:
Part 1 HERE
Part 2 HERE
Part 3 HERE
Part 4 HERE
Part 5 HERE
Part 6 HERE
Part 7 HERE

For years I have suffered with chronic fatigue and insomnia. I always figured it was because of all my surgeries, but it got so bad my primary care physician sent me to a neurologist. He did several tests and discovered that I had heart disease and sent me to a cardiologist. He said in a 30 minute test my heart beat was completely chaotic and no two beats were the same. I guess he was very concerned, I wasn't, because he made an emergency appointment for me for the next day. I took the stress test and I was very healthy by that standard! Ha I knew it! But he wanted to do the tilt table test. I told him fine whatever, there was nothing wrong with me anyway! The tilt table was to prove whether my BP dropped low enough for me to have fainting spells. Come on this is not Hollywood, I DO NOT FAINT!! I endured the test and used every bit of will power I had. I was going to prove him wrong. Finally after over a half hour, he put nitro under my tongue, and I passed out within seconds! Let me tell you the movies have it all wrong! There is nothing graceful about it at all. I had the worst headache EVER and just wanted to vomit. He was almost laughing at me after the test. He had never seen someone with so much will power to fight! LOL Guess he didn't know all that I had already been through and I had to have will power to survive. I was diagnosed with NeuroCardiogenic Syncope. A fancy name for saying that my BP drops too low and I faint. Seriously I was being diagnosed with a fainting disease. I thought it sounded stupid. (As you know by now I'm not very good when doctor's try to diagnose me. LOL)

I was put on a bunch of Blood Pressure pills, and as much as I hate to admit it, I did feel a lot better! I had always had low BP, but now that my large intestines were gone I had a hard time absorbing liquids, so my veins couldn't pump my blood to my head fast enough. It's not really as bad as it sounds. When I get up too fast, all my blood rushes to my feet and kinda sits there for a few seconds. Then my heart has to work super hard to try to get it to come back up. During those few seconds my brain doesn't have enough oxygen and I black out. Usually I can feel it happen and I have a split second to grab the wall or something until it passes. A few times it has caught me off guard and I fell on the floor, usually bumping my head pretty hard. (shh don't tell my doctor! LOL)

About a year and a half after I was diagnosed with heart disease I had a vision. Before I go on I should tell you it's pretty common for me to have visions and dreams. I usually have one every couple months or so. It just seems to be one of the ways God talks to me. Anyway so I had a vision and there were alot of things he showed me. And one of them was that I am already healed. I no longer have to rely on doctors for treatment. Just because I can't see the miracle yet, doesn't mean it's not there! I just have to stand with every ounce of my being, and believe! Don't look at circumstances or what my body is telling me, but trust what God has told me. He promised me a son was on the way, and my body is completely made whole. He was even going to grow back my intestines, and men and doctor's will wonder at the miracle he has done! AWESOME!

Well I was so excited when I woke up. Many people had told me these same things, but somehow God had made it so real to me. God has never lied to me, or failed me. So I took this vision to heart. I once again threw away ALL my medicine. I started buying maternity clothes and baby stuff. I was walking by faith that I was healed! I made an appointment with the cardiologist and told him I stopped my meds. He did a bunch of tests and told me I was healthy and if I was doing so well without the medication, I didn't need to take them anymore. He also showed me a picture from my first test and my most recent test. The most recent scan had showed perfect heart beats for a 30 minute period. Truly a miracle! God had done it again!

I was really hoping that I would see results of the baby immediately, but it was not to be. It has been over 2 years since this happened. But I have not doubted and wavered. I KNOW what God said! He promised to heal my womb and give me a son, and I KNOW it will happen! He promised to grow back my intestines, and every morning I look for that to happen! I don't know how or when these things will happen. All I know is that God told me to stand and believe that I am already healed and these things ARE going to happen!

God has been so good to me and healed me many times. He has also given me many promises of what is to come, if I have enough faith to believe! I truly thank God for all he has brought me through and the lessons he has taught me along the way. I don't wish any of these trials away because God has used them to make me who I am today. I KNOW he can heal diseases, he healed ME! I KNOW he can heal cancer, he healed ME! I KNOW he can deliver from addictions, he healed ME! I KNOW he can over write doctor's reports, he has done it to me over and over again! And I KNOW I will have my own child soon! He has NEVER failed me and I KNOW HE NEVER WILL!

Thank you for reading my story! It has meant so much to me to share it with you! I'd love to read any comments you have! God Bless you and remember:

Luke 1:37

For with God nothing shall be impossible!

8 comments:

Diane said...

Hi Sarah,
My name is Diane and I am Deb's sister (the photographer who did your family pictures). I have been following your story, as Rebecca has been posting links on facebook. I love that you are such a strong woman of faith and wanted to share this with you. I don't know if you believe in praying to the Saints, but I am Catholic and believe strongly in it. My husband deployed January 3rd of this year, and on January 4th, the day after he left, I miscarried. I feel blessed to already have an energetic two year old, but the desire for more was always there and the loss was devastating, especially after I just sent my husband to war for a year. My mother-in-law sent me a prayer card for Saint Gerard, Patron of Motherhood and Childbirth. Here is the prayer to conceive:

"Oh glorious Saint Gerard,
powerful intercessor before God,
and wonder worker of our day,
I call upon you and seek your help.

You who always fulfilled God's will on
earth, help me to do God's holy will.

Intercede with the Giver of Life,
from whom all parethood proceeds,
that I may conceive and raise children
who will please God in this life,
and be heirs
to the kingdom of Heaven.

Amen"

I have prayed this prayer often. My husband came home for two weeks of Rest and Relaxation. He is back in Afghanistan now, but I believe strongly in the power of prayer and now sit here 9 weeks pregnant, awaiting my husband's return in January.

I will pray for you and your family, and WHEN you do conceive, I will pass along the prayer for Expectant Mothers.

Thank you for your story.

Diane

Beth @ Sweetbottoms Baby Boutique said...

AMAZING story, Sarah! Thank you for sharing! God is GOOD! =)

yarnabees said...

Thank you for sharing!! God is the Healer!! Stand strong stand Faithfully waiting on Him!!

Laura said...

Wow, this is such an amazing story! Thank you so much for sharing. I will add you to my prayers that you will be blessed with a child soon.

Jcogsy said...

My Mother Bought me the St. Gerard prayer card as well when i was newly pregnant and having some very scary spotting.. and i prayed with all my might!Happily we have a smiling baby boy named Abram John... Stay strong! You truly are an inspiration

audrey said...

What an amazing story.. Feel on praying and we will add you to our prayers for that baby to enter your life- my dad has a ostomy bag and i can see his struggles and love that you shared some of your personal funny stories- my dad has his because of cancer and will be starting treatment for a second type of cancer next week- your story is truely uplifting and thanks so much for sharing it.

Elizabeth Caldwell said...

Wow Sarah! Your story made me cry! You are truly blessed and an amazing, strong woman that will, no doubt, be a GREAT mother. God will bless you with a child for sure - if anyone deserves that blessing it is YOU!! Thank you so much for sharing your story!! God bless xxoo

Randi Reed said...

Sarah,

I came across your blog through your page on SparkPeople.com. I'm glad I followed the link to this site. Your story has inspired me. God has spoken to me in visions a couple of times. It's such a faith booster when you see the vision come to pass! I pray God sends you the fulfillment of your vision in His perfect timing(which I hope is soon). God bless you & your family!

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