The Power of Praise!

This past Sunday my friend, who also has been standing by faith for her miracle baby for the past 9 years, announced that she is 9 weeks pregnant! What a GREAT and MIGHTY God we serve! She was infront of the church testifying and without even thinking I jumped up from my seat and ran up to her screaming and jumping and gave her a big hug. Then I fell on the floor crying and praising God for this miracle he has performed. He has answered my prayers, and my friend has conquered her trial and come out victorious through faith in Jesus Christ. Immediately came to my memory the post I wrote called "The Winter Blues". Another friend told us not to wish away any time, because this could be our time for conceiving, and for my friend that is exactly what happened! Oh what rejoicing when God fulfills his promises! It definately increases our faith for the promises we are still waiting for.

Not immediately, but within the hour I started being overwhelmed with a mental battle. "why did I have to find out the same week another friend will be giving birth?" "Why did I have to find out the week of my birthday?" I am over the moon excited for her, but "why not me too?" "Have I not stood strong enough?" "Have I waivered and didn't know it?" "Is there doubt and unbelief in my heart?" I could barely eat supper for being consumed with these thoughts. The devil was already trying to rob my victory.

I had the perfect solution! Since God is doing miracles right now I'd better go and try to get mine quickly, so I told my husband "let's go make our baby!" How carnal I was in thinking that I could work this out in the flesh! We started kissing and I lost it! Not like a few sniffles, I mean LOST IT! You would  have thought someone had just died. And indeed I was grieving, for my empty womb. My husband was so sweet and just held me and rocked me. I was shaking so badly I thought I was going to be sick and I couldn't catch my breath at all. A deep agonizing mourning for myself and the loss I felt. How could I be so happy for my friend and so sad for myself at the same time?

I haven't slept well for the past few weeks and knew that if I let myself stay worked up like this that I would have a terrible, sleepless night filled with worry, frustration, pain, sin. I didn't want to doubt God! I know he promised me and it WILL happen! I don't know why it is taking so long, but I can't worry about that right now. I had to get control of myself before I spiral down into depression and the devil really get's ahold of me. I kept telling myself to get a grip and God has not failed me. I quoted scripture and claimed victory in every area of my life. But still this overwhelming sadness was gripping me and I couldn't shake it. I also knew that I've stood too long and hard to let the devil rob me now and I'm not going to let him defeat me. So I began to Praise Him! I couldn't even think about anything specific or I would break out into tears again. I just began to worship!

"Thank you Jesus for healing me! Thank you Jesus for your peace! Thank you Jesus for your joy! Thank you Lord for all the miracles you've already done for me! (read my testimony) Thank you Lord that I have never lost confidence in you! Thank you Jesus for your goodness to me! I praise your holy name Jesus, for you are great and greatly to be praised! You took those stripes on your back for MY healing, and conquered death, hell and the grave for MY victory! Every battle has already been fought and won! Thank you Jesus for all your blessings on me!" It's amazing what the POWER of praise can do! I began to feel a peace come over me. A peace that surpasses all understanding. A peace that I can leave my burdens with the Lord and he will be faithful to me if I stay faithful to him!

This entire incident was only about a half hour long before I fell into a deep and peaceful sleep. The best sleep I have had in weeks. And I slept the whole night! AMEN for that!

Today I can still feel the enemy trying to fight my mind and rob MY victory, but I will NOT give it to him! I have been listening to T.D. Jakes on YouTube. Reading my bible. Praying. Praising! KNOWING that my miracle IS on the way and NO DEVIL IN HELL can rob me! All day I have praised God for my friends baby and knowing what a miracle it is, my faith is increased. And I think that may be the real battle. The enemy doesn't want my faith increased. But too late! hahaha GOD HAS ALREADY WON!!

My confidence is not in the things of this world. Doctor's may say my womb has failed and I need a hysterectomy, but God says I AM HEALED! Doctor's may say I have surgical damage and too much scar tissue, but my God says I AM HEALED! Doctor's may say I have tumors all through my womb and it's impossible, but my God says I AM HEALED! Man may say that it can't be done, but my God says IT CAN BE DONE! Man may say it's been 14 years, why don't you just adopt, but my God says OUT OF YOUR WOMB YOU SHALL BRING FORTH A SON! Man may say God doesn't move like that anymore, but God says I WANT TO DO IT IF YOU WILL ONLY BELIEVE!

I thank you Jesus today and always for the victory!

1Pe 5:6-10 Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time. Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.

AMEN!

This song really blesses me and I wanted to share it with you. My first YouTube video! :)

"I Still Believe" ~ Jina McCool